Don't.

Sometimes I wonder whether I purposely put myself in situations that fuck me over, because it seems to happen a little too frequently to be a accident.

I'm lonely, again. Well, I'm always lonely in one way or another.

Mum generally isn't home when I'm home, I fall asleep in a cold bed, and wake up feeling half complete, all my friends are dating people, and what am I doing? Oh, playing 3rd - 4th - 5th wheel to everyone.

I don't think I remember what its like to feel a spark with someone.

I want to feel that spark.